A Poem for a Missed Childhood. The Iranian Revolution that Began as a Gasp.

Do Not Look Away!

I am watching the streets of Iran again,

and the world is asking the wrong questions.

Not will it succeed,

not who will lead,

not what comes next—

but whether to look at all.

Forty-seven years later—

faces lifted, throats raw, hands raised—

they are calling for the return

of what once frightened them less than this.

What kind of suffering bends history back on itself

until even its enemies begin to look like shelter?

I am tired.

Too tired for slogans.

Too tired to pretend this is ironic.

It doesn’t matter.

It never did.

People do not rise to be right.

They rise because the body refuses

one more compromise.

When pain reaches this depth,

logic is a luxury.

People do not rise for ideology.

They rise to breathe.

What they are reclaiming

is not power—

it is oxygen.

And this—

make no mistake—

is the most consequential revolution

of our lifetime,

happening not in textbooks

but in living rooms,

on cracked phones,

between heartbeats.

Some revolutions begin as arguments.

This one began as a gasp.

Not later.

Not someday.

Now.

Do not look away.

I have been waiting for this inhale

so long my lungs learned restraint

before language,

so long that breath became something earned—

counted, hidden, practiced in rooms

where the walls leaned inward

and listening was a survival skill.

Exile is not distance—

it is time that refuses to move forward.

I have been waiting since the night

Tehran accused the dark,

since sirens did not warn but named,

since childhood split without ceremony

into a before that vanished

and an after that never quite arrived.

The basement smelled of damp concrete and hot wax.

Candlelight shook as if it understood.

Men screamed in the street—

not words, but weight—

and bullets arrived before sound,

puncturing windows that had believed

they were allowed to protect us.

Moonlight competed with fire

for the right to enter.

Wax slid down the candle’s spine,

slow, deliberate,

as if grief required time.

My mother’s hand closed around mine

until it was no longer a hand

but a rule:

stay.

My father moved too quickly,

packing with the precision of panic,

placing our life—

rugs, photographs, silver, memory—

into hands we knew would steal them,

because theft could be mourned

and disappearance could not.

I learned early

that survival is loud,

but disappearance is efficient.

Later, in England—

where we escaped but did not arrive—

my classmates drew suns and swings and dogs with names.

I drew Phantoms.

I drew missiles stitching fire across the Alborz.

I drew the falling,

because everything I loved

was descending,

and the page did not argue.

I learned how to make my body smaller

so rooms would forget me.

How to move my lips to prayers not my own

while fear coated my tongue

and the Shema pulsed, illegal and alive,

behind my ribs.

I learned how a name, spoken aloud,

could harden into a verdict.

There is a pair of shoes

I never saw again.

I do not know

who wore them last.

And still—

there was mercy.

An empty classroom.

A woman who did not ask.

A cupcake and chocolate milk

placed in front of me

as if nourishment were answer enough,

as if fear did not deserve

the final word.

Then came the silence.

The kind that keeps the furniture standing.

The kind that teaches you

disappearance does not announce itself—

it simply removes a weight

the body had been leaning on.

The house did not collapse.

That was the most frightening part.

The day my father vanished,

the house did not collapse.

That was how I learned

grief does not always arrive loudly.

Sometimes it enters

like oxygen leaving the room.

He left me no inheritance

except integrity—

weightless, untaxed,

the only thing light enough

to carry across an ocean

in a single suitcase.

Now I sit beneath fluorescent lights,

white-coated, credentialed,

translated into safety.

I read hearts for a living.

I count rhythms.

I return pulses

to bodies that have lost their way.

Still, the red dust of the foothills

lives in my lungs.

Still, my grandmother’s hands return—

turmeric-scented,

creased like a Silk Road map—

stirring a pot where latke meets tahdig,

teaching me without words

that a carpet holds

only if every thread is honored.

Tonight, the threads are tightening.

From Shiraz to Isfahan,

breath is being reclaimed.

Ninety million bodies press upward

against the lid of a tomb

we were told had sealed itself forever.

History does not shout.

It applies pressure

until something gives.

History is awake.

It does not blink.

I see the elderly woman—

bleeding, unbowed—

showing the world she has been dying

for forty-seven years already,

so what is one more night of fire

if it leads to morning?

I am a man of three loyalties

that do not compete

but complete:

America—

for my life.

Israel—

for my soul.

Iran—

for my breath.

I am walking toward a Nowruz

that has not happened yet,

carrying the child I was

like a second spine.

I am afraid—

not of returning,

but of being welcomed

by a place I only know

how to love from afar.

If I cross that threshold,

will the ground recognize my feet?

I can almost taste

the cold watermelon at the summit—

bright, impossible,

sweet enough to cauterize

the salt of exile.

Do not look away.

Look for the white teeth of this moment—

the beauty inside the ruin,

the dignity of a people

who have decided

that survival alone

is no longer enough.

I inhale.

Not because it is safe—

but because I am finished

living on borrowed air.

The sky is no longer practicing

the language of fire.

It is trying to remember

the language of home—

slowly,

like a mouth relearning a word

it once needed

to stay alive.

Afshine Emrani, MD 2026

Afshine Ash Emrani, M.D., F.A.C.C.
Assistant Clinical Professor, UCLA
David Geffen School of Medicine

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